An Absolutely Brand New Start (No Bull)

Well, I think I'm gonna make new start, meaning that I will forget the past, especially several things that disappoint me. There's so much thing, from jobs, to love life. What a long and boring things. I will not really pursue lovemate anymore. Why? Everytime I start, there is always something stuck in the process and cannot move on. It is hard for me to continue life like this. I think I'm gonna concentrate to the job things. Without any jobs, I hardly can live. Depend from my parents is not an option. Thank God, I got a very understand parents which still transfer some money into my account, without noticed me. Without their money right now, I absolutely cannot pay the bills. Oh, thank goodness, I still have people who loves me. I just realize that, while still writing this blog.
Beside that, I just want to emphasize that 'that' crazy girl is not an option anymore. She is no good at anything, beside just to lure. I admit that I fall for two times. Broken for two times. And I want to emphasize that I DONT WANT TO APPROACH HER ANYMORE AT ANYPLACE. SHE IS ABSOLUTELY NOT YOUR DESTINY (although, I dont really believe in destiny things). She approach me, she make me drunk, she dump me. What an asshole.
At this evening, I just meet girl that I flirt her at several weeks ago. Well, she looks like liking me, but I dont know, if that is wrong impression or what. Think that I can get her close to me, if I was approach her at that time. How stupid I was. Although she is not that good, but why not gamble for unsure things? Right?
I wanna ask to God too, Why bad things go to good peoples? I cant find out the answer in this world, I think I just wait till the time reveal it to me. I just think good peoples deserve good things. It seems unfair, but maybe God testify the good peoples whether they are truly good or just acting good. Hm...... I hope that my life will be better soon. I really really hope that. GBM!