Jealousy?

Well, is that green eye monster reside in me? I dont know. There's something going on tomorrow between my fren and 'that' girl. Uh...... that's boring topic already, but I think it still hot and I'm kinda jealous. Hm.... I dont know, I really really dont know. My fren keeps telling he and 'that' girl, about the secret (well, i dont know if that's a secret or not anymore, as I already know that). She invite him into the movie, watching scary movie thingies (what is in your mind, is exactly what is on my mind) finding chances or whatever it was called. I dont know what exactly is on my fren's mind, as I know he just enjoy the moment. Damn it, I hate to admit it that I hate him. I think it is really hard to forget someone we really care or love anyway. But, I will try it with all my strength, hoping that the God help me too.
Tomorrow morning I will make reunion with my college friends. I hope it's fun. I hope I didnt think about 'that' girl. What is the fun if I still think of the desperation, or frustration. Well, I hope I'm fun. I wondering if I got chance to approach that girl again, how am i feel? Happy? Sad? No response? I dont know. I really really want to meet them and want to see how they react about me if I catch them. But i know that God is not that bad, allowing to make that situation. What such a stupid little guy which wait for a star falling near him. Stupid, really stupid.