What is looks is not always what it seems

*sigh* actually, what it looks always not what it seems. I think I need to rectify my previous blog, that she is not what she is. My fren told me that I was wrong in the sense of I was never open minded and never talk out what exactly on my mind to other. Well, actually I am. I need to change and the change is will be tremendous. I need change, a big one. Well, it seems that what I already read in previous astrology (I'm sux, I know) already tell me that. Telling me that I need to redone many things to make everything ok. But, it seems I'm too stupid to realize that, and didnt catch what it means. I too shallow. I dont think whether I still have chances or not. It is already the second chances, but I blew it again. Way too stupid. Too stupid and dumb.
Communication is the key (as many people said that, but i'm too stupid to agree with it), as many problems can be solved tru communication. Open minded, grow up, realize what we already done, if it is wrong, correct it, and prevent it will happened again.
I also feel sorry to my parents too, as I'm too stupid to think about future. Cant think what we must do to carry on, make it a better life (like what Philips said), and I just being way taking this life too easy for me. They already do their best to help me, but I'm just too stubborn that I'm always right. Never heard about others perspective. That's why, it is only me who cant go on, as I saw all my fren already become what a man are. I'm too dependent to my parents (that's sure), and I barely need to change. I NEED TO CHANGE.
And about that girl, well, I think I'm way too wrong (in the 1st place, I think I didnt wrong at all until today). I'm too easy going. Always making perception that it is only me who can solve my problem. I'm so damn wrong. At this point, I just realize that. I dont know if she still can forgive me and giving chance (not chances, please note that!!!). But, I know the chance are slim. If she can forgive me, I sure want to correct my errors, rectify it and make sure that will be never happened again.
I always think that BR is think too simple, but I dont realize that I did too. I need to take back my words and perspective about my fren, that he is nasty or whatever. I'm sorry, I really mean it. He is a fren in need is a fren indeed. He really is (although he is a little nasty). Well, today too much information I get, I will ensure that I can chew them all, at the right taste. Be open minded, communicate with other, do changes, and hope that everything will be OK. Dont be mentally down, as almost every problem has solutions. (I know how to think like that in a technical words and works, but I'm so slow to realize that it is also work in real life). I still hope God would forgive me. And still giving me chances to correct my mistakes. GBM and others!!